Just A Little Crush

I have some thoughts on my return later, but more on what’s on my mind now.

I see a name on IM I haven’t seen in ages.  And my brain screams, “Oooh shiney!” at me.

And then my insecurity sets in.  I don’t want to bother him.  I want him to like me.  I guess I’ll just keep quiet.

I know I’ll hear all the reasons to contact him from the folks who read.  And they’re probably right, especially as little as I see him on IM, I should take the opportunity; however, I can’t bring myself to do it.

There was a connection there, once upon a time, but life interfered for both of us for a while.  He had so much going on that had him in a bad place.  And since, I’ve pulled so many disappearing acts.

I’ll sit here and crush and my heart will swoon when he notices me on Twitter or I see his name on IM and get butterflies in my tummy.  I guess some days, I’m just a silly girl.

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